too tired mentally to post about anything so i am just gonna upload some pics that was taken during merdeka day. Call this killing two birds with one stone.  or whatever.

 

 

 

u know sometimes when different langguage is used to express something the feeling that it exudes is very different.

suo yi xian jai wo xiang yong hua yu lai biao da wo zhi ji de xing ching. ke si ke siao de di fang si wo de hua yu ye bo si hen hau. Suo yi ni men bu yau siao wo oh. Wei sen me wo shuen zhe young hua yu ne? wo ye bu zhi dao. Hau wan ba. Na tian wo peng dau mo yi ge wang ye si yong guang dong hua lai biao da zhe ji de. Wo can dao jue de hen hau xiao. Ke si hai si you dian bu tai rong yi kan ming bai ta si xie sen me de.

Anyway tats my run with writing in pin yin. Gets a little tricky ha ha ha. And i think sometimes pretty irritating to read. Besides i am not using standard pin yin because i have no idea what is standard pin yin.

I set out to write somthing else but i cant really bring myself to write it so i just started messing around and monkeying around. 

Oh i decided to pamper myself today. Sort of anyway. I finally got to giving myself a manicure and pedicure if you can call it that. My toe nails were in a horrible horrible state because i let the nail polish chip of for such a long time. I just didnt have the heart to fix it. And also the fact that my feet is almost always wrapped in a sports shoe so i didnt bother. This semester its been labs evreryday so i didnt get to really wear my heels. Can you believe it is me saying that. I used to be pro sneakers anti heels. But now i feel like wearing heels if i can. What a change ha ha ha.

 Wonder what to do for my toes and fingers on ball nite. I think i am going for the retro look. Sorta anyway. Dress isnt the slinky type, but its a halter with a low cut. flaired skirt. Planning to put on a tranparent rectangular schawl or something. And am carrying my grandma's beaded bag. Hope the look turns out ok. shoes not yet bought . Should be white i think. And hair i am not too sure yet but thinking of curling it. I am hoping to look splendid on that day .... hope everything turns out fine. And i am planning to have a spanking good time. So ppl watch out here i come. Nothing is gonna bring me down. And i plan to take pics with almost everyone i know ke ke ke. So ppl be ready to have a camera shoved into your face.

Hmmm i wish i owned a doggy. So jeoulous of you ppl that gotta own a dog. And now a puppy is available for rm 300. But i still can't afford it either. Its a terrier beagle mix. And before this i was actually saying to myself if i gonna get a dog i will get a beagle like the one below

 

then imagine it mixed with a terrier

wonder how will it look like. But doesnt matter. Its still a doggy.

And you know wat, some one is a proud owner of a cute little bichon looks like the one below but this isnt his la, its just a picture i found on the net. So unfair

Can't wait to get a doggy once i work i am going to love it to bits and pieces.

I realize now that i have been making the same mistake that i made before this. I don't understand why do i keep flying into the flame even when i know i will get burnt again and again. Nothing is really there but just bright bright light and hot hot flames. And i cheat myself by allowing me to think that light means hope. I've been through this, i have been frustrated trying to read into something that just isnt what i think i see it to be. At this point i won't say its his fault for sending out mixed signal because for all i know its not even a signal at all. I would like to be angry at him, because it just makes things easier and that was what i did the last time around. But i would still like to be friends so i don't really know.

b4 this i looked at those people that cheat themselves and keep getting sucked back into liking someone which evidently doesnt like them which has everyone around them tell them that its not worth it and i just shake my head. So why dont anyone take my shoulders shake it real hard and tell me "wake up already!!!!! There really isnt anything going one" . Or did you guys let me blind you to the truth as well. Hmmmmm or did you guys alr did it but i was blinded to the extent i didnt see you.

Another normal tuesday for me. Only differnce is that my control subject labs are already done for the semester so i happily have 3 hours break. Wasted  more than 1/2 an hour trying to trouble shoot the program my group members wrote for our project. Finally gave up and went for Lunch at Burger King. Was contempelating whether to eat my favourite swiss mushroom burger coz it was beef and after my grandparents passed away earlier this year i kind of mentally debated whether i should take beef any time soon. There isn't really any rules against me taking it. But it is just some sort of psychological feel good factor. But its always like me to be a butthead, I just felt like being difficult, in this case with myself i guess. Coz the last time i went out with him for that merdeka eve yam cha session i helped him eat a very small portion of his beef murtabak so that he wont be too full to eat his nasi briyanni later on. Well it was sort of slightly the novelty of the situation so i guess its just me being stupid. So because of that i just say," what the heck i'd already broken my no eating beef yet sort of deal.  Doesnt make a difference anymore." So i had my burger. But it sort of clashed with my diet anyway, exactky why i am a butthead.

So everyday i torture myself thinking about things that is just of no use. Don't get irritated u all.  Just ignore this for now. Its like how i used to just burst out laughing in class for no reason? This time around the thoughts that enter my conciousness isnt those funny thoughts but these useless thoughts.

 

Was too tired to blog yesterday since i have been horribly exhausted for the entire week. Always say want to come home and crash and sleep and always also never managed to. Yesterday i wasn't even home till 9 pm. Was invited by Oon-Ee and another coursemate to check out something the Sunway Monash CF was organizing so i went. At the begining i was a tad reluctant to go coz i was just being lazy. Think above mentioned exhuastion and need of sleep. But since i was probably going to be in the lab till late i thought i might as well join in. Its been donkey years since i joined a CF meeting but i always loved the songs they sing. Pretty interesting sketch they had too, depicting a few verses that is in the bible i think. Not too sure about that since i am not a christian. The whole sketch was kinda like this:

A guy goes to the barber for a hair cut. And you know when u go for hair cut and nothing to do the barber usually just starts whatever convo he can with you. So this barber was like " you know what, I dont think god exist".( well i kinda expect that coming. No offense)

And so this guy just sat there in quiet contempelation. But he did not say a word up till he left. Then suddenly he came back and he asked the barber why he doesnt think god exist. And the barber says that, if god existed then why did he let people on earth suffer with all the tragedy of tsunami and everything.

So the guy replies, " then i dont believe barbers exist". And the barber protested that he does exist.

 
So the guy pressed on and answered, " if barber existed then why are there still people with long and unkempt hair walking around"

And so the barber answers, " But i can't do anything about it if they didn't come to me". ( expected this too , but it was a really smart way to potray what was needed to be said. ) And the rest of the sketch depicted a few scenes which was in the bible or something where jesus healed a blind man and forgave an adultress.

 And there was a speaker after that too. He mostly elaborated on the meaning of the sketch.

Then it was off to dinner we went. It took us some time to decide on the venue but at last we ended up in salmon steak ss15 anyway. We almost always goes back to the same place. But i guess its mainly due to the price as well. Oh well food is food i guess.  Anyway something kind of scary happened when everyone was making their way to the makan venue, but luckily i wasn't present when it happened. I am not entirely clear about the whole story but apperently jin hui was on his way up the ss15 flyover/bridge when he decided to step on the gas paddle seeing and assuming that the cars at the other side of the flyover was probably moving. But unfortunately realizing too late that the cars were actually in a standstill he was going so fast that he had to brake really hard, which caused his car to sort of drift. Lucky it did not loose control and spin. Sounded pretty scary to me. And now his supension koyak and his alignment kinda out. Oh well, dont know to say its because he is a pretyy good driver thats y can avoid or its because he is suppose to be a good driver that these type of things gets overlooked and accidents happen.

 Wow this is getting to be a pretty long post and its just about yesterday.

So today i went to shop for my ball essentials. I am like a very minimalist make up kinda person. I dont put makeup on a regular basis for one. So for occasions when i just feel like it, make up is basically eyeliner and lip gloss. But lately i threw in mascara when i feel like it as well.

So i bought foundation and eyebrow pencil and also mascara because the other one is kinda dried by now. And the reason i don't own an eyebrow pencil, which i think should be the most basic make up to own, is because i have no idea how to draw my brows. Thay are so sparse they can barely be seen. And if i drew it too dark i look like crayon shin chan. So i bought an eyebrow stencil as well.And also got an electric eyelash curler just becuase it cost 6.90 anyway. And i am dying for those oh-so-sexy eyelashes that spans across ur eyelids. This is probably an excuse for me to get stuffs. But who was the fella that coined the word retail therapy must probably be filthy rich or just plain in need of some other kiknd of therapy. How i see it is, for most of us, we need therapy after spending so much  on shopping becuase it doesnt really feel that nice when u realize your wallet is empty. Anyway this are the stash of make up and my eyelash curler i bought

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 the eyelash curler probably look like some shaver but note that it is an electric eyelash curler.

 

Anyway moving on... other than that, i got myself a pair of shoes for

rm 36. Was expecting to spend rm 60 to 70 for a pair of shoes but unfortunately Nose( its a shoe shop btw) didn't have anything i suitable. There are shoes there that i like but not something i would buy as it is fabric and gets dirty really fast. Not to mention for that price and for it to be so hard to maintain i rather pass. So now i have become a sharron H fan as this is the 2nd pair of shoes i bought from them(being that i have extremely limited shoe collection. or more like none at all). I actually rather liked the design but me being me, i always want to look for the ultimate deal. Unfortunately those were the last pair and i was afraid they would be gone when i came back. But that alone wouldn't have convinced me to buy it though.  What really clinched the deal was the 10% discount that the lady was shoving in my way. Well 10% isnt really that much. But i figure i like the shoe enough.

But when i got back and tried it on with my dress i discovered that it was kind of too white for my pinkish dress. It just looked sort of weird. And also maybe a little too plain. So i tried to zest it up a bit. And the results are below. Do vote for ur favourite. 

  sorry the pics or not right side up. This is the one without any modification.

ballerina-ish

And a less elaborate one with ribbons tied at the side.

Thats all there is. So help me with the decision k. That will be my ball look.  

 

 

Was bumming around in the lab today when as a bunch of my coursemate decided to leave for lunch. So as they were preparing to leave and me to wander off somewhere so that the lab can be locked, micheal, one of my coursemate who is a regular in the Sunway-Monash CF asked me if i blogged. So i said ya and asked him why, to a reply that went along the line " Oh Oon-Ee told me you blogged about the CF event last thursday". That was the previous blog.  I think at that instant my brain sorta went like this :

 " Blog ? CF ? ayacerumba !!!!! what did i write in that post again. Oh no, hope i didnt post anything offensive. Think think think. Hmmm but knowing me, i don't think so also kua. ..... But... but.... but..maybe you acciddentally made fun of something leh "

Ya, indeed religion is a pretty touchy subject to alot of people( not that i am pointing my finger at any particular person la). Thus a lot of thinking has to be done before talking when this subject is bridged. Coincidentally, last night this subject poped up in a conversation with me and someone( you know who you are . Don't angry ya. Since i am on this topic only post about it lo) Some statement was made by this friend of mine which at that moment i felt was a pretty sweeping statement. I forgot what exactly the statement was, therefore i will not try to ill-represent it. But it was something about other religions, to which i asked him, by how did he came to such conclusion. After saying something else, which i don't remember what. (OK i think there are really too many holes in this story . But sorry ,thats how my memory is like. Full of holes )He asked , what relationship do other religions have with their God, if any at all. Well i guess he can't be blamed really for perhaps thinking that in this case all buddhist (since i am one) do is light joss sticks and pray and idolize ( not his exact words la). Because, really that might be the general picture that is being seen by others as well. But i am no expert in this either la. But the relationship is actually more than that. But like any other religions, there are people who misrepresent their religion ( maybe misrepresent is a little strong a word) thus causing others to see a different picture as well. 

Being in malaysia, everyone is still fairly tolerant of every other people's different  religions and this is something to be grateful about. But i think getting a better knowledge of other religions could in fact help us have a more open mind and be less judgemental. And to think of it, I think props must be given to malaysian government for incorperating in the history syllabuls, facts on the three or was it four major religions in malaysia.  But those are indeed pretty on the surface but nonetheless educational.

This is my opinion and my opinion alone, therefore i apologise first if i happen to offend anyone, but i think that coming to be knowledgable about other religions does not necessarily means your faith in your religion lessens but infact i feel it should reconfirm your faith in your own religion.

 

Anyway i have no idea if what i have been typing here makes any sense to anyone, but in no way is this meant to offend anyone. But if i did, do leave a message and air your views.  

edited : was reading through  www.e-sangha.com when i came across  

              this and find it appropriate for this post :

"One should not honour only one’s religion and condemn the religion of others, but one should honour others’ religion for this or that reason. In so doing, one helps one’s own religion to grow and renders service to the religions of others too. In acting otherwise, one digs the grave of one’s own religion and also does harm to other religions."

 

Hmmmm meant to blog about this and many other things, but now this is the only thing that has remained in my mind. The rest wasn't as important i guess, so it flew away. Anyway

 

Congratulations Daphi !!!!! for getting hired at Ernst & Youngs !!!!

told you you could do it.

Here are just a few pics that i took with my phone for the ball. The rest will have to wait since its with a few people.

Well i decided to blog eventhough i have nothing better to blog about really. I am just going through the motion in life. Yada yada. Actually i do have issues that i thought of blogging about but i just get lazy.

So the entry before this was just a picture entry. I still havent got the rest of the pics though. My thoughts of the ball? Well i am not too sure how i felt about it. It was just alright i guess. But the food was just pretty ordinary. The company could have been better *wink wink*. The performance was actually pretty blah. And there wasn't an after party. Sigh, sigh..... But not as if that wasn't really what everyone who had went to a ball hadn't expected and been telling me. Well i guess i had to do it, you know. I haven't really been to a ball. And i would like to at least have said i went once. But i guess now that i have. It isn't much difference than a stupid IU day we used to have in high school. They really should rethink this whole ball thing. It is kinda getting stale. Even with the theme and all it doesnt really reflects on the day's event. So what is the point of the theme. Perhaps they should go all out and really do some stuffs which are theme related and especially especially open the dance floor much earlier. They might even want to think of doing it ala HK movie style or maybe just movies style, where the people stand around chatting and sipping drinks and eatting hours de vours. might save a little cost and perhaps be more interactive. I dunno, maybe.  Anything is better than stupid chinese style dinner which reminds me of chinese weddings. Be creative people!!!

Anyway i was thinking of doing the going with a bunch of friends kind of thingy, and have a whole barrel of fun. But that didn't really work as planned. But its alright, i understand. Well i think if we went as the noisy bunch i should think we would have at least rocked things up a little. But u peeps are like way across the sea, so too bad. Then there is the option of going with a date. But too bad, that bombed too. But i do have doubts whether i might be disapointed even if he had been able to make it. Things just don't work out as great as u would hope it would.  But i think i shouldnt ask too much and just be glad that he offered  to be my date and actually meant it. Seriously, that offer came when i was pretty depressed and was like thinking, " pls just give me one thing to be happy about" and i guess i couldn't ask for more.

 Well more about that day. Wei sern was suppose to pick me up to the ball, but he came earlier to avoid the jam from his place to my place. So he waited for me while i put on make up and all. Was suppose to leave at 5 put started a little late. So only finished at 530. Thanks for the make-up btw Mich . But made not much diff anyway i guess coz we had to wait for Dom in uni. Luckily i was late or we would have had to wait longer.  So after Dom arrives we set off on our way to putrajaya, not really knowing the road too well. Dom was leading the way, and on and on we follow till somehow we reached this place which was absolutely breath taking. By that time it was already dark, and we were staring at this place which sort of looked like it came out of a metropolis of a movie where the buildings where all lited to the max.  But guess what, we over shot and ended up in cyber jaya.  Bummer. And on the way of finding our way out we bumped into another bunch of juniors which got lost as well. How ridiculous.  So a 3 car entourage proceeded to the putrajaya marriot and finally reached there 1 hr late, but still with time left before the event started. That is malaysian time for you.  And when we reached, we were eagerly ushered to meet a new friend Michelle, which surprise ! surprise! is no michelle at all, but a guy who decided it be fun to,partly  in the words of Rajiv," make balls shrink" well at least make Rajiv's balls shrink anyway. But he did make quite a pretty girl for a guy . And from there on wards i guess u can say everything is history.

Other note worthy thing is, laine's dress was really nice. In fact laine was absolutely gorgeous. Can beat that actress we used to say u looked like wei . And Cindy, muaha ha ha. Finally get to see her in formal gown. Shiok siul. Cindy sure totally blossomed into a HOT chick.  

 Wow look at the legth of my post. I guess once i start its hard for me to stop.  Well thats all for now. Toodles.