These entry is made while i am not completely sober so if there are things that might not make sense u should know y. I am probably going to be pretty random.

 Was actually hoping to find someone online which i can talk too. But no such luck . Anyway life has been pretty much slightly meaningless right now. Spiritually i guess they will say tat i am seeking too much of something that isn't permenant e.g fun/ money/ booze and all. And i shuold look deeper into life and find a blance of healthy living which i guess should involve more holistic ( is that how u spell it )activities. Half of me agree with it and half of me seeks more of those impermanent fun. So it sometimes gets pretty frustrating.

There are things i  thinks i figure that i wont exactly say when i am entirely sober but then again what makes me think that being half or maybe quarter unsober will actually help me express it easier. sometimes i feel that i am just making an excuse for saying things i wish i could say normally but usually don't.

At this moment in life i wish for a few things. One would be money. Go ahead u can say that i am a metrialistic bitch. Maybe i am over exagerating. Which human wont wish they had a little bit more to spend. I really envy those that are my age or even younger tat are actually already earning their own for keep. One would be adam fr 8tv which blog i just stumbled across yesterday. Earning his keep and spending it anyway he sees fit is really just something tat i wish i myself could do as well. But i guess in the end all is not fun and games as u have to keep track of personal finances and once u are broke u are broke. But more close to home is my friend michelle which is now with an agency and have been doing quite a few modeling and photoshoots jobs recently. I envy her to be able to spend freely as well. And which girl doesnt like to shop. Maybe some one might answer and say me. Sigh ...... there is more to it than would meet the eyes. I wish i could just decide to buy something at a moments notice too. But its just not the same. I do not have tat ability. I don't earn my keep. Once i spend the money i will not have any means to replenish it until the end of the yr given i get a job. I wish too that i can get those photo shoot jobs or promoting jobs. But i dont feel as if i have the requirements for those jobs. What ever it is. low self esteem or knowing where i stand. And also most importantly i have the most taxing course ever. Once the sem start i am a full time student. No extra crap .... i would like to believe i can handle extra jobs but that has always been proven wrong once everything starts to build up and occupy my entire life. And not only do u need to complete assigned work. Having extra knowledge of things would be a plus point too. So well lets just say tat my life is entirely engulfed. U ask me if i have perspective of my life. I say i wish i had. I have been loosing it bit by bit as we go along. Some one tell me what i need to do to gain a clear sharp perspective. Feeling pretty hopeless

oh btw i find long ranting blogs pretty hard to read and i am writing one. The irony. But on the other hand i dont expect much ppl to read it so congratulations if u finish reading my rant.  

So i guess i kinda got the hang of updating the blog more consistently then before. Though i have one million and one things and yet not much to say at the same time.( go figure how that works). I guess the trick to having the interest to update the blog is to not bother if the entries are long or short. Coz i kind of had this" if u had nothing better to say then don't say anything" type of atittude towards blogging. But i guess i should take it as just something to remind myself in the futuere of how i lived my life. Perhaps in times when i feel the lowest and need something to remind me of who i was.

Anyway i actually watched initial D prior to the 2 post before this. Wanted to post about it but had other distractions as can be seen. It is the first show i have caught ever since i fell off the face of earth like about 2 months ago. I really miss going to the cinema. So what do i have to say about the show. I was totally gushing about it when i came out of the cinema. But it wasn't exactly because of the line up of good lookings in the show. What then is it about ? Well the drifting totally got me hooked. The comedy was actually pretty hilarious when i watched it in the cinema where everyone actually started laughing. But i noticed that when i watched it at home this time around i didnt really laugh out loud. Maybe its because i alr saw it coming. But i am seriously amazed by the drifting. And the fact that those are no special effects. They actually did the real thing. Just amazing. I think this show might be more nicer to watch in the cinema more than at home.  We will see how it goes when i finish it.

 Next up. Friday was karaoke and drinks. Remind myself to nv ever ever go to karaoke at night ever again. Sometimes i hate myself for being so blur. What happened ? Well because we were slightly late i was dropped off to collect the room. So usually the charges were still palatable even if we took the night session for karaoke. But this time around she handed me this slip for charges and it read 44++ i didnt really noticed it and it being for per head until i almost reached the room . In fact she actually told me it was 44. but me being me i didnt really catch the whole thing. I think i was half thinking it was for the whole bill not per head. Sigh i am not too sure what i was thinking either way.

And that does not include the buffet dinner which was another rm 10. And not to mention the tit bits which is a total rip off as it is. And dont forget tax. So if everything were to be added together i think it would come up to 60 - 70 per person, which is totally ridiculous. You cannot begin to understand my horror when i realized that. But lucky for me. JH was there. Him being him, well he always have his ways in solving problems. So we ended up having a party package(lucky his birthday was 2 days ago, coz it was only valid for birthdays) which inicluded dinner, cake and fruit and we ended up paying 45 each, which was a total relieve. But i hope nv ever ever to have that happen to me again. I really feel bad. Worst if they had to pay rm 70 for my mistake. Sigh .... how do they manage to rip ppl off that way and get away with it anyway. It just doesnt make any sense what so ever

Anyway thats all for now. More updates later. cest la vie 

I am pretty curiuos how many ppl can actually admit they have no insecurities whatsoever. And even if there are such takers, i need to really consider if i should believe such a confident acknowledgement. Perhaps i seem too pessimitic, but being human, it is pretty hard to believe that there is really someone out there that can have not a single insecurity.

Physical appearance can be pretty decieving sometimes. A confident exterior might just mean a well practiced composure. You might be surprised then that the most well held together looking person is the one with the most insecurities. Only achieving such an appearance because of all the practice. Of course i am not saying that all well composed people have the biggest insecurities in the world. That being said, does not mean they have none at all.

But either way when u let insecurities get in the way of your judgement i could only guess that the result will definitely be not good. Having have insecurities crept up on me on enough occassions, i can say that its no easy job to subdue this voices that keeps saying negative things. So i guess the best i can do is recognize my insecurities and work on it.

Realize that i am being pretty vague with my post. So i guess u can say one of my insecurities is to reveal too much of myself. Anyone noticed that yet? Well that is work in progress. Trying my best to over come that insecurity. Sometimes i get wary.  

I was reading an article on life of buddha and i came across something which actually reflected my thoughts even before i read the article. This is not intended as some type of religious indoctrination or whatever u call it, so if anyone is easily offended by religious materials other than the one that u personally practice, do not read further..........

For the rest, read with an open mind but be warned it might be pretty long.

 

 

The teachings of the Buddha

During the next forty-five years the Buddha preached His new-found knowledge to help mankind and the Devas. He was known as Satthaa Devamanussaanam - teacher of Devas and humans. Some special features of the teachings of the Buddha are as follows:

1. The Buddha wanted us to study, investigate and understand His teachings, only accepting them when we found them to be moral and conducive to the well-being and happiness of mankind. The Buddha said, "Do not accept anything on mere hearsay, tradition, rumours, inference, preconceived notions, supposition, or because it seems acceptable. Do not accept anything because the ascetic who taught it is respected by all ...".

Buddhism appeals more to the intellect than the emotion. It is concerned more with the character of the devotees than with their numerical strength. When the millionaire Upaali visited the Buddha with the idea of condemning His teachings, the Buddha patiently taught him the Dhamma. Impressed with His teachings, Upaali wished to join His followers. However, the Lord Buddha advised him saying, "It is well for a distinguished man like you to make a thorough investigation." Upaali, overwhelmed with joy at this unexpected statement said, "If I had become a follower of any other teacher they would have proclaimed the fact that I, Upaali the millionaire, had changed teachers. The more pleased am I." Upaali became a Buddhist by conviction but the Buddha with His boundless compassion advised him to support his former religious teacher as before.

2. The Buddha advised us that at no time should we ever insult or condemn the religion of another. Intolerance is the greatest enemy of religion. Denouncing unfair criticism of other faiths the Buddha states, "It is as a man who looks up and spits at heaven. The spittle does not soil the heaven, but comes back and soils his own person." On another occasion the Buddha said, "If you find truth in any religion, accept that truth."

3. The ordinary precepts that Buddhists follow are not commandments but modes of discipline (sikkhaapada) that they take of their own accord. In Buddhism we are not forced or commanded to do anything. We follow the teachings of the Buddha of our own free will because we understand and believe in them.

4. Buddhism teaches non-violence. In the Dhammapada (Law Verses) the Buddha said:

"All fear the rod,
Life is dear to all.
Feeling for others as for yourself
You should neither slay,
Nor cause others to slay."

Following, understanding and accepting the teachings of the Buddha, Buddhists take the first precept 'paanaatipaataa veramani sikkhaapadam samaadiyaami' which means 'I undertake to observe the precept of abstaining from destroying living beings'.

To the unique credit of Buddhism, it must be said that throughout the peaceful march of 2600 years, no drop of blood has been shed in the name of the Buddha, and no mighty monarch has wielded his powerful sword to spread the Dhamma.

5. The Buddha taught us to be compassionate to all living beings. In the Karaniya Metta Sutta the Buddha said:

"As a mother protects her only child,
Even at the risk of her own life,
Let one cultivate boundless thoughts of loving kindness.
Towards all living beings."

6. The Buddha taught us that we must show love and kindness to our enemies and those we do not like. He did not believe in revenge and an eye for an eye. In the Dhammapada the Buddha said:

"Conquer anger by loving kindness.
Conquer evil by good.
Conquer the stingy by liberality.
Conquer the liar by truthfulness."

7. The Buddha advocated equality for all mankind. He attempted to abolish slavery and the degrading caste system in Indian society. He declared:

"By birth is not one an outcaste,
By birth is not one a brahmin.
By deeds is one an outcaste,
By deeds is one a brahmin (1)."

According to the Buddha's teaching, caste or colour do not prevent one from becoming a Buddhist or joining the order of the Sangha (Buddhist monks). Fishermen and scavengers, together with warriors and brahmins were freely admitted to the order of the Sangha and given positions of high rank.

Upaali the barber was chief disciple in matters pertaining to the discipline of the Sangha (Vinaya). Sunita, who was honoured by kings as an Arahanth (2), was a scavenger. Rajjumala and Punnaa were slave girls.

8. The Buddha also raised the status of women by starting the order of the Nuns. He saw the good in both men and women. Gender is no barrier to spiritual development and religious service. At that time in Indian society women were often treated as inferior to men. When Queen Mallikaa gave birth to a baby girl, the Buddha comforted the distraught King Pasenadi by saying,

"A female child may prove even better than a male offspring."

9. Rebirth and kamma are also integral parts of Buddhism. According to the teachings of the Buddha, life does not end at death. One is reborn instantaneously. Though many great teachers of the East advocate rebirth, it is not a belief exclusively for the East. Many great men in the West believe in rebirth. Among its advocates we have scientists like Thomas Huxley, who was responsible for introducing science to the 19th century British school system, Professor Gustaf Stromberg, the famous Swedish astronomer, Professor Julian Huxley, the distinguished British scientist, philosophers like Pythagoras and Plato, poets like Shelley, Tennyson and Wordsworth, and American industrialist Henry Ford.

Our life is a result of our kamma. We are not brought to this world by anyone but ourselves. It is the result of a cause. The cause is delusion (avijja). To understand this theory, we need to develop our minds through meditation.

Kamma means action. Vipaka means results. Good actions cause good results. Bad actions cause bad results. The Buddha said, "Whether you are in the sea, the air, or in a cave, you cannot hide from the effects of your bad kamma." That is the Law of Kamma. It must be stressed, however, that it is the intention behind the action and not just the action alone that sets off the reaction (vipaka). As Buddhists we refrain from bad actions and perform good actions because we know that one day, either in this birth or in a future birth, the effects of our actions will come back to us. We know that not even the Buddha can save us from the effects of our bad actions.

As Buddhists, we understand that due to the Law of Kamma, bad things can happen to a good person just as good things can happen to a bad person. We see the bigger picture. We go back into our past lives and understand that these are the results of our past bad actions. As such, we do not blame any divine powers for our misfortunes. Knowing that we are now paying for the results of our past bad actions, we take heed and ensure that we improve and not make the same mistake again. We learn from our misfortunes by doing good and avoiding bad actions.

10. The Buddha taught us that you are your own saviour. No all-powerful God can help us to attain Nibbaana. No God can help us to escape from the effects of our own actions. As such, you make your own destiny. Mind is supreme. In Buddhism we learn to control our minds and our destiny. We rely on no one but ourselves. The Buddhas show us how. They are our teachers. It is up to us to follow Their teachings of the Noble Eightfold Path, to control and purify our minds through meditation and attain our own salvation. The teachings of all Buddhas can be summed up in three lines:

"Do no evil, Do good, Purify the mind."

 

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This is part of the article or rather an e-book which i was reading from http://www.e-sangha.com

So credits to e-sangha

 

for the whole e-book the url is:

http://www.e-sangha.com/21.0.0.1.0.0.shtml

 

As always, i start off having tons of things to write about only to forget like most of what i wanted to write to update everyone. Back tracking to last week...... now what did i do last week.  Ha ha ha getting old. All i can remember is up till last friday where i went summit with Daph and bought myself a pair of RM 20 3/4 length jeans. Best buy ever. Well i noticed that  i seem to be waiting for all this occassions when i chance upon a totally suitable priced and perfect fit outfit before i make any purchse of bottoms. Hmmmm to think of it more like obscenely cheap items. So i end up with less than suitable wardrobe. So now i decided to get another pair of quality jeans and some skirts. But so for no luck. And also no $$ la. I need some small jobs to fill my purse. But so far none yet. And class is starting

Oh back track a little more coz i just remembered that i went to Sungei Wang (KL) on thursday. Yes on my mission again to look for bottoms. I am still picky with price so not much luck ... but those that i tried on were too low cut for my liking.  Not a fan of ass crack display so i passed. So because we came such a long way, me and daph decided we still have to go back with something in our hands and so we bought a pair of earrings each for RM 12. A fair enough price and my first pair of super long and intricately designed earrings. yayness. can't wait to wear them.

Moving on, Sunday morning was for dim sum since michelle needed a break from her studying. Hmm but apperently there wasn't any photos for this occasion. Wonder why . So we ate till our hearts desire all the prawn dishes on the offering. though this is no buffet dim sum. But in the end the price as usual was a fair one. RM 13 per person. Good enough for me. Was suppose to go 1U after that but felt to sticky and unappropriately dressed for it, not to mention lacking in funds, so i decided to skip. And stayed home to enjoy my beautiful sunday. Rest is such a wonderful experience :p

 

As for monday, had a date with mummy. Been such a long time i went shopping with her. She has been one busy woman. I noticed that i value time with her more and more as i grow older. Not that i didnt when i was younger, just that it seemed more precious now then ever. Didn't last long though coz she "escaped" from work for this little randevouz. Shhhhhh. But since she is working for dad anyway so its not a punishable crime. Just as long as he doesnt find out . So we had to hurry back after lunch when he called from hing kong for something he wanted done. But for the time we were there we went shoe shopping for mum. And guess where i got all the pickiness for shoe buying . We didnt buy any in the end. But in the end the pickiness is a trade picked up from having to be thrifty anyway. She used to buy shoes that she liked every once in a while when she went shopping when i was a kid. I on the other hand was suppose to look for bottoms, but found none that looked good on me. But i ended up buying a RM 20 top anyway. But it wasnt exactly what i was aiming for to add to my wardrobe. but more clothes wont hurt i guess. I will just find a way to work that into my other clothes. Finally we had ramen for lunch as planned and went home. A pretty eventful day i guess. Then it was last minute confirmation of the next day plans and a canceled yam cha session with some one which ended up turning into a yam cha session for me and Daph instead. Girl talks as usual, catching up and all. And off to bed to get ready for tomorrow's long day.

 

So Tuesday comes along. And so its off to genting we go. This trip almost didnt happen coz of all the clashes. And the fact that i was slightly reluctant to go as well due to monatery reasons and also my dance class being on tuesday. Suppose to be back in time for my dance class. But seeing to how late we arrived, it would be ridiculous for me to make them go back down after a few short hrs there. So i decided to skip my dance class. I was expecting the trip fr kelana to top of genting to take 1 hr. But in actual fact it was 2 hrs in total. So travel time alr 4 hrs. reaching the station at 10 would mean arrival time at genting at 12 plus and to reach subang at 7 u have to reach kelana at 6 ish. So do the calculation. Doesn't make sense rite.  So in the end we left genting at 5 ish six. Had a detuor to take some pics at a temple and left there about 7. Wanted to take the cable car up but it was close for service. A slight relieve and some disaapointment . So some guy took us up with a car instead coz the next bus was at 130 which is really too late to wait . But the down point was him charging 15 per person. But in the end the guy was pretty interesting to talk to and he took us on that detuor photo taking session. ended up with a RM 45 ride for the entire group as he promised to charge a lower fare when we called him again for our journey down. Well, another inetersting experience and another glimps into the many different ppl that is around us. Making a living driving up and down a mountain. That is really something different to life. So we ended up back at kelana at 9ish  i guess and sent suet home for her dinner before we had ours at some mamak near her place. And i satisfied my tosai craving.

 

Wednesday was rest day but results is out. Failed another subject by the same lecturer that lectured another subject i failed last yr. Enough said. But then again its not entirely his fault but he isnt much help either. But the rest were pretty fine. Ds for digital and java which i am quite happy since i actually managed to screw up another digital subject last year some how. Now at least i redeem myself. And the 3 other results were slightly mismatched but then cest la vie. So i guess i have to extend my studies one semester..... that is another long story.

 

And as for today. Michelle's last paper finally. So we had lunch at her choice of restaurant which was fish and co. Stuffed myself silly unintentionally. Suppose to be on a diet physically and also for my wallet. Was suppose to order a light meal but there werent any which was reasonabally priced so i opt for fish and chips minus drinks which cost 9.90. Had sky juice instead.  So i ended up feelin fatter and RM 10 poorer. note to myself : Must diet after today!!!! next was ice skating which was another RM 13. Feel like and old aunty alr. I can't really see the joy in hoobleing in circles, coz i can't skate. But that might be due to the fact that i was tired also la. Who knows. So after a short stint at hobbleing without pk ing we decided we had enough and exited the rink. After which we had our share of sugar coated strawberried and me my unsatisfying hot latte and Daph and Michelle their ice chocolate. Then it was off we went to our homes. And that ends the day.

 p.s: pics added to the gallery for the scenery shots in genting and the 

        food that we had this whole hols when we went out together.

 

 

 

Sigh ok results are out time tables are out and now project groupings are out . Well at least for alex see's groupings anyway.  But not as if not expected as it is. Parasu is as always some where in the clouds. Oh those are the lecterurs for our 100% internals project subject. And so i dunno if its luckily or unluckily that i am assigned under his supervision.

Lucky could be because he is pretty lenient in his mark giving(usually anyway) Unlucky is the way he marks things is pretty random, so instead of getting good grade for good work u might get the opposite coz he couldnt understand nuts about what u did. And also the fact that u probably never get a straight answer for any question that you might post.

So anyway now i am slightly fretting over the fact that i am on uncharted territory. most of the group members which i am used to are in alex's supervision which i guess could have been predicted. But anyway there is only so much u can rig the whole slection process to go your way. And for them everything has been set and they alr have their groups and project. As for me. I am not sure if i'd rather parasu choose my group or i choose myself. There are a few seleceted individuals which i pray very very very hard do not end up in my group. This time around there are only 3 - 4 people in the group and we can use all the help we can get. I am serisously stressing alr. But looking on the bright side, i think its about time i had some change in my life. Something to shake me up a little.  Maybe even an all girls group ? who knows. I am a little sceptical though as bad and un-girl power as it sounds. But that only stems from the fact that i am slightly unconfident of myself. So if that were to happen i think it will only bring out the fighting spirit and girl power in all of us. I think i should be up for it . It has been a long time since i actually fired up that spirit.  So the saying goes what doesnt kill you makes u stronger. So a little war cry and lets be on our way to getting that HD.

 

Please give me all the moral support u guys can spare. I need it very much. And i pray hard that i have the courage and the confidence to pull through. And no more distracting problems please. Check up on me to see if i survived threee months later

 

besides this there is also the other subjects which i am fretting over. ponnam's subject definitely, edwins transfer functions have me sweating too. I always found it pretty challenging. i think one more is parasu's robotic subject. That should be alright i hope. And one more subject to be repeated. Hope i manage to absorb and master it to perfection this time around.

 

As for the ponnam's paper that i fail. Hope there is a supplementary paper coz i hope i dont have to pay another 2000 buckaroos. And hope i get a good grade this time. More than a P hopefully. But most importantly no failing again please. Life is really a long and winding journey and i think i accidentally took a wrong turning. Hope i find my way back to the right course. At the mean time i will try to find the beautiful scenery that this wrong turning might provide. Still looking.

 

There. more updates off my life. As specially requested by rae. Cest la vie miss u mucho mucho.

They say when you are feeling down because of setbacks count your blessings. So i counted mine and that gave me courage to go on.

Some one say be satified with what you have and you will be happier. I try to, but sometimes i seem to have been short changed. But then again i still have enough left to afford some happiness .

I have always said it all depends on how you look at things. So i looked and i looked and discover that my vision is getting a little short sighted. So i might need some glasses to boost my vision soon.  

I try to smile away my problems. So if u see me smiling without a reason be rest assured i havent gone cuckoo. But when i laugh its just that i remembered something funny or amusing. So thats a differnt story.

Another day in the life of me..... la la la  

Another excuse to shop? anyway i am the furthest person u can find that subcribe to that phylosophy. Coz sometimes shopping makes me miserable. Its not that i hate to shop. Its just that i can't afford to shop. Thus having so many things i might want to but and not much i can afford is no therapy at all. And once again i launch into the i am broke rant. I wonder when i will finally make one of u guys just want to bitch slap me for going on and on about my financial status.

So anyway, I would usually see something i like and see the price. And even if it is what the rest of the market is selling for or even a little lower i still do not usually buy it unless it is something that i really really really want. And even if i look absolutely wonderful in it but the price is a little on the expensive side i do not get it either. So with this kind of shopping attitude i dont really have much choices of clothings and my only pair of jeans( yes this sounds pretty miserable but i out grew the other pairs and i couldnt loose weight fast enough to fit back into them) has become so loose due to washing that wearing it is pretty uncomfortable.

And because i am in dire need of replenishing my bottoms collection so that i at least have a suitable outfit for a more casual occasion other than slacks, my one and only 3/4 pants or my one and only short skirt i have been hunting for jeans and skirts. Not any jeans or skirt but unbelievably cheap jeans and skirts. Or at least a fairly priced one that i absolutely love. After numerous shopping excursions, several unpurchased and unsuitable items that i tried on and a RM 20 3/4 pants purchase i actually found a potential buy in pyramid. A frilly skirt which was rather cute. But... (there is always a but) the skirt was in white, yellow and pink. The best bet was white but i was afraid i might stain it and the pink is the hardest to match with clothes. I also felt that the yellow was hard to match as well. So i had to think about it since it was RM 50. Not very expensive but not exactly cheap either. And because it was a skirt and thus something which i dont wear too often, i am a little sceptical. So i left without a purchase.

 After such a long and winding story comes my main point of this entry .

So tonight i had dance class in taipan. About the only time i ever go there. And so the only chance i get to visit this one little boutique there. And i thought hack, why not go have a look. So, coz class was canceled i went there hopeing i might find something. The tops were just ok but nothing really caught my heart. So i went and look at skirts. Those were just ok as well. But then i saw a pleated denim skirt going for RM 32.90 and took it to try. I think its a steal if i look good enough in it. after the skirts were the jeans. And guess what. It was RM 29.90. A rare catch as well. That is if i look good  enough in it also la. So waited for mom to come, in case she didnt know which shop i was in and arrive and can't find me. And also want her to give opinion la.

First the jeans. Not bad. Didnt make my hips look big. A little low cut but bearable. Definitely getting since Its just RM29.90 where to find. The skirt was a maybe coz mum was kind of skeptical. She is really cute though coz she insist the skirt should be worn at the waist right above the belly button. Well i think i might not be too far off by saying that ppl my age normally wear things below the belly button now adays. After some consideration and the fact that it was a catch and i look fairly good in it i finally decided to get it. So final purchase was RM 62.80 for a pair of jeans and a denim skirt. How's that for retail therapy and money's worth.

So maybe waiting for the right price and item is not too bad. cest la vie. Another update from me. Looks like i have been quite consistent in updating my blog . Not bad huh

satisfaction no.1

Wore my new rm29.90 jeans today to uni today. It fitted great and was so comfortable. Now that is value for money and satisfaction guranteed.

 Anyway had my exemption for lab approved by solids lecturer. Surprised he recognised me. He said he thought i had passed the subject. Well technically i did.

 

satisfaction no.2

went redbox for karaoke with michelle and laine after that. Sang a song which was a medley that was 10 minutes long. Didnt know all the lyrics coz it was in chinese but was satisfying to say the least, coz i wanted to do it sometime ago.

 

satisfaction no.3

Went to the arcade to play daytona. Kind of had to have a game or two almost every visit i had to pyramid ever since initial d was out. Sadly didnt get to attempt the real initial d game though.

Michelle was suppose to race with me but she didnt manage to start the game within the given time frame. So i ended up racing against 3 other guys. Was actually in first place at the beginning but summersaulted my car and ended up being 3rd. Was playing catch up until at the very last minute right before i reached the ending line i somehow slid past the rest to clinch my first place. Didnt notice this, but heard michelle say that they turned and looked at me with an incredulous face. Ah well victory is sweet

the next game was with laine and michelle. summersaulted twice. Laine was fist this time, me second and michelle third. Ah well you win some you loose some.  

satisfaction no.4

As planned, went down to sea park for roast duck. MC drove us all in his leather upholstered beemer. Lovely ke ke ke.Was dreaming of crispy duck skin for a long time. Wasn't satisfied the last time i had my duck. But this time around, the skin was heavenly crispy and smelled so darn great. The meat was absolutely juicy and tender i could almost cry.

 

Ahhhhh another day just living.  

Lately i have been mostly writing about me, me and only me and haven't shown much interest in the world out there. But then again, its pretty depressing to say the least. I do try to read the news paper, but a mix of not getting the newspaper on time coz mom brings it back + having no time + depressing and senseless news just adds up to my laziness in reading it.

But of what i have caught on and off, here and there, there are a few issues that particularly got to me.

One of them being the devianist guy, ayah pin or something, that has been on the news for quite some time now. For the uninitiated, this guy got in the news for leading a "cult" which  encourages everyone to diligently practice their own religion and follow true to what each person's religion teaches. I still have pretty mixed feelings about this whole issue. Him being a malay, making him automatically a muslim and there being some syariah laws and all I would say is i didn't have much basis as to say what is right and what is wrong. But after reading an article by marina mahathir( she writes occasionally for The Star),which somehow seemed like it was aimed at this issue if i may read into the not too subtle hints, i find that my views coincided with hers if not entirely. If i remembered correct, she was trying to make sense of the absudity of the issue where someone encouraging others to practice their own religion and he himself practicing his own religion is being reprimanded by law( someone even suggested ISA?). Unfortunately what makes it more absurd i feel is that, if he was wrong, that he is still not arrested and trialed. Maybe i am too simple minded towards all this law and order thing. But after all that is said, I can't whole heartedly agree that he is entirely right either. But i can't justify what i am about to say as i haven't followed the entire fiasco as closely as needed. What i feel is that, if he were to claim himself as in a higher power than the rest of his "follower" then i would digress. I agree with the to each their own religiuos practice encouragement but i don't agree to something that seems like power craving which i find unsetteling.

Another news on the headline a about 2 weeks ago was the london blast. Somehow it rolled off as something unfortunate but didnt quite get me thinking much. So much lost of life whithin this pass few years just kinda numbed ur senses. But even so, after all this while and all those suicide bombings i am still befuddled by how killing others for any cause can make sense to anyone at all. What they say about two wrongs not making a right. And i feel it has in fact become such a crisis that almost every other day u see news related to religious unrest. And not only does it achieve anything positive ( not that anything positive would have came out of it anyway), it has infact caused biggger damage than ever.  Just a couple of days ago i came across the news in yahoo news about the shooting to death of a suspicious looking guy in the subway system. At that time reports were pretty vague as it was a breaking news which just happened. But i somehow felt that he might have been innocent. I was waiting for more updates but none came so i went to sleep. It felt wrong that a man was gun down just because he was suspected to be a bomber. What if he was and if he wasn't shot he might have detonated a bomb as justified by another news article i read. Well it was cleared in today's newspaper. An innocent man was robbed off his life. And he might not even have known why, because i suspect he might not have understood the commands of " do not move" or what ever they yelled at him when he was perseued. It has come to a point where innocent ppl are killed one way or another. Perhaps killing one innocent person to potentially save a group of others might seem the way but it still isn't right. I dont think there is a definite way to solve this terrorist problem as of anytime soon.  This is depressing. But well life goes on.

Dum dee dum ......

Now lets see when was the last time i posted.... last sunday i think.

So what has happened in a week's time, or what CAN happen in a weeks time. Well i wouldn't know what has happened in the news that much though. I haven't read much of the newspaper. But from the headlines its still harping on the AP issue. (approved permits for importing cars) and then there is ayah pin and i am not too sure about the london bombers were in the news. So ya another week has past in the world without me noticing if there had been much difference. I am turning more ignorant than ever.

As for my world, which only revolves around home and monash university malaysia. Well not much breaking news either. Work is streaming steadily in soon to be increased by the exponential. Have been trying not very successfully not to fall asleep in class. I should be paying attention i know. I AM trying to pay attention very very very hard. Which just makes it more frustrating than ever. And the problem is  it isnt that i am THAT sleep deprived. So go figure.

re-re-confirmed project and practice project title with lecturer on monday. We settled it quite fast. And he said it was ok. So we are doing a signal tracking robot with obstacle avoidance system. Wonder if its good enough. And also wonder if we can achieve or target. Hope so. I'm in charge on the tracking section of this project. One of the more challenging task ? besides the programming that is. That has to be more harder to figure out. But in the end i think everything has its own challenging factors. This time around group is smaller and task are much more easier to divide since the project has much more obvious sections which doesnt overlap too much. Pretty comfortable with the arragement i guess.... time for me to prove myself. So i hope to get the circuit done by next week so that i can trouble shoot and find alternative solution if needed asap.

Anyway something funny happened right after monday's project practice session. But i think it would seem funnier to be there at the moment. Here goes nothing.... So a whole bunch of us were standing around talking after that class when suddenly william noticed shiaw pei's skirt were the lace up kind, like how you would lace-up your shoes. So he wondered aloud how if she had an emergency and really needed to "go" really bad that it would take forever to unlace to skirt to get it open.  As fast as the words were out of his mouth another guy micheal replied " just pull up la" with hand actions included. That totally sent the whole bunch laughing for a while.

control lab was interesting too. The lecturer was pretty laid back being young and all. Very enjoyable fellow. And he was helping my group out pretty much since we got the "wierd" experiment the first day. I think i will enjoy his lessons very much if u i could just say awake.

ah well more updates soon .....  

 

Just saw a number of pictures showing the extent of injuries when you ride a powerful bike( those cool bikes they ride for racing etc) without safety equipments.  I realize now how some ppl can faint at the sight of blood. I didnt realize i was so squirmish at the sight of raw flesh torn and manggled. I now know that even if i want to i might nv be a doctor even if i had the intelligence. And i was considering out of curiosity to watch the beheading of those ppl that got caught by the al-something group. Well curiosity might have killed the cat. Lucky i didn't or I might not have been able to eat for days.