Finally school is out .... at least for austrailian uni students anyway.  Its been a while since i really updated this place for real. And especially for this past three weeks or so, true to what rae said it seemed as if i had fell of the face of earth. well rae u are not the only one that feels that way. Me too. ha ha ha.

What a semester this has been. And some how i felt that i had teleported to some other world for this past three months or so. So many things are not what it used to be anymore. And work, at least for more than half part of this semester seemed to be the only thing in my immediate world. Well at least it felt that way. So now i have 3 weeks to do what i want to do before i shove myself back into this horrifying world again. Thinking about it makes me shiver. Though talk is talk i really hope i manage to do what i set out to do next sem. Just looking at Dennis is enough to make me stressed enough.But i think that applies to eveyone. I really wonder where he gets such hard core determination.  It is pretty admirable for him to be how he is today judging from the conversation we had today about who he knew and hang out with which were from my school ... but they always say dont judge a book by its cover. A pretty interesting world this is.

 Anyway besides that. Many things to get cracking at. Like field training stuffs and all. And my books that i didnt get to read. Things i didnt get to bake. 3 weeks is seriously a short short time.

So anyway a short update for now. So many things i want to write about but i am pretty distracted now.  

I was actually sitting here wondering what to write for my next entry as i could think of so many things to write yet cant exactly express it in proper words at the same time.  The next thing i knew, i was going through the friendster bulletin board and saw a number of post on a tribute to vincent fong. I anticipated what was coming but didnt quite want to believe it to be that way. But yes, after reading to all the posts i guess its true. He is no longer with us.

 So, i guess there is no bumping into him years later and wondering if he recognizes me or if he does, then having the "so whats up all this yrs conversation". Although i can't claim to be his old fren we did interact during those basketball sessions and in school which now seems like its been such a long time. Which it has. And in fact he was actually one of my crushes in high school. I don't know what relevance is all these things that i am saying but it just seems as if it is too soon for so many ppl in our age group to be leaving us. What is actually becoming of the world.  Isn't it just the beginning of something for everyone at this age. Aren't we suppose to be working towards our goals to have a better future what ever tat means to each and everyone of us. There is still such a long road in front of us. Yet for some its already cut short.

 
But perhaps i am too indignant in judging this to be the end of the road for them. Perhaps for them another journey has only just begun. And this journey has a better destination. I guess its only human to feel at lost one someone leaves. That is because we do not know for sure what is after death. I don't have the answer either but to just hope that that place will be a better place.

 well i guess thats all for now. Can't really articulate my thoughts too well lately. Too many different thoughts swirling in my head to make sense of one from the other. Hope i get it sorted out. As usual cest la vie