after all the murderous assignments, presentations and finals i am back. I am not too sure if it is as bad as i have made it out to be coz i dont have a very good gauge of the level of how things are ..... i am just like dazed ........ i really dunno anymore what direction i am heading after my final paper has ended. I have been so packed up to the brim with activities that i dont even have time to think. That isnt really that bad except that i stay with my parents and what they demand and what i would like isnt always on the same wavelength. I need a whole stretch of days or at least 2 whole week more or less to be allowed to just do what i please without any obligations. But i have a feeling i am alr over stepping the limit. Its just tat they hasn't been able to catch up with me to seriuosly lash out severely. There has been occasions where they have commented on me being constantly away from home but that was just minor. I guess perhaps they aren't as horrifying as i make them out to be but then they are still parents. And there are occasions where i still need to get a more formal approval which i really am nervous about asking. I am pretty envious about ppl that get to stay away from home in that way. Though understandabily there are certain cons to the situation as well. But hey i think i am pretty much up for a certain life level up. Sometimes there needs to be a change so severe to actually significantly push for a certain growth which might not be possible if it wasn't for a given situation. Maybe it is overratted but i believe there is a significant difference. Oh well, i guess i have to make the best of the situation. Life hands everyone different fruits but in the end if u have the initiative u will still be able to make jams for ur bread. So everyone has different flavours for their breads. So savour each and every bite of hard work put into it.

Gosh i havent posted for so long and i started with something deep... ( is it deep or is it just me ).... sigh ....

Anyway a great start to the hols. Thanks laine for getting me to go melaka .... would have missed all the fun playing mahjong and drinking not very healthy but then still fun. ke ke ke .... and i needed it also la ..... if not i will be more stagnated than this. Life is good in tat sense that i feel sometimes i am rather lucky in certain things. But perhaps it is just my over optimism speaking. He he he ...... i wanna go on more holidays like this hopefully with a few elligible bachelors la ke ke ke * wink wink* ke ke ke ........ but dont have also nv mind as long as got all u lovely frens out there i also very satisfied alr

p.s. just dont make me lamp post la ho .... all also berpunya alr ..... hmmmm depressingnya ... nvm .... donwanna talk anymore alr ..... cest la vie

Laine laine kinda a bit the a few days late la but ke k ek econgrats congrats. All the jokes aside, i really have to say again that finally u ppl got together. And i am happy for you . Sorry la very long winded, but after all those ups and downs to arrive to this it is something.

Anyway, life has been pretty much a blurr....... prob coz i let it be anyway. And my tabulas is left stagnant for so long generally is because of that. How do you kickstart your life anyway? anyone has the answer let me know.

Anyway i guess one is to make a to do list. so here goes nothing

1. Read loads of books. especially none fiction ones
2. Start revision. Very important !!!!!
3. get cloth to make pants. ( hope it works)
4. spring clean the whole house ( CNY coming soon)
5. watch all the shows and concerts that i havent touched.
6. learn more about spain.
7. learn "10 minutes" dance
8. buy a new swim suit
9. swim more often
10. paint more nails. (Ppl get all ur nails here i need white mice)
11. get into shape. though i have been saying that for a long time
12. learn to create a web page
13. photoshoot !!!!!!
14. bake anything
15. be happy

hmmm the list is getting a little too long. Ah oh well.

Anyway i was just thinking..... apparently i have been out most of the time yet i dont seem to have any stories to tell. Is this sad or is this sad.

Mind the randomness but i think i just remembered something to be excited for. At least i dont wallow in self pity for too long. Anyway about this exciting thing. Our project and practice group is entering a science thingy competition with the XY plotter that we spent a whole semester on. At least something came out of it .... It is quite gratifying to know that at least the project is worth something.... not that it didnt bring in marks in the first place. Anyway all in all though it is still kinda sad that i wont be too available to help out with the reconstruction of the machine. But i hope to join the group on the day of the exhibition. Which just reminded me a new item for my to do list. Learn up labView programming. So looks like i better get out of the blurr state now that i found a little more purpose in life. But results are coming out soon and that is gonna probably knock me back into the disillusioned state somewhat. So sigh i dunno ........ in the words of britney spears.." i used to think; that i got the answers to everything; but now i know; that life doesn't always goes my way"

so cest la vie