just a shout out...... its been too long since i updated...... suppose to post bout my bday which is going to have alr been pass by half a month almost . will do that....... but not now......... just thought of posting...... almost done with all my E&E stuffs..... i hope :_ (........ sigh ...... dont know anymore........ felt rejoice a moment b4 this ..... but ..... this always happens...... feeling unsure right after that few perhaps minutes of rejoice..... hope i didnt screw anything up .......pls pls pls............. when will i ever have the assured feeling that what i did is right ...... insecurity .... now that really sux.......Anyway...... not the end of my list of works ..... that^ ...... Analog is gonna be really * spare u guys the swearing*.............. sigh pretty lost there.... though i read through some........ so its gonna be one stressful day and nite and if things dont go well another nite again......... and another day and nite ..... help!!!!! see i am rambling ............ 1st thing to learn on the list :- learn how to ask for help........ cest la vie

having a coffee ice-blended at the moment courtesy of my bro ke ke ke ....... Not as great as coffee bean's or buckies as daphi might call star bucks.... but nevertheless the handi work of my bro and a new gadget we got for serious blending...... this wont last long though .... as it has happened with our juicer ke ke ke ..... oh well
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Anyway ..... dont quite remember what i came in to blog alr.... sesat as usual.....Anyway there was one thing i wanted to comment on ......... something to do with taiwanese and korean dramas..... some how they seem to favour themes on adopted brothers falling in love with their sisters very much ..... just saw another movie on that..... wierd wierd wierd..... that makes 3 korean movies i think and 2 taiwanese movies to date that has the same plot.... Which brings me to thinking ...... How would anyone feel if that happens..... and the brother isnt bad looking either... wait thats besides the point.....Well it isnt exactly wrong in a sense they are not blood related.... But in another sense kinda.... ( ok oon ee this is ur fault .... its not the rite word either ) kinky .......... But one thing that i must agree with the reaction of this actress in the recent show i watched....( which btw oppose to Autumn in my heart's actress... which also loved her bro "that" way)... is that i would feel betrayed............ Betrayed becoz all this while she has treated her a brother, trusted him as her protector with no other motive but her being his sister...... And its all shattered becoz he wanted more than tat. ....... oh well ..... just another movie .... i get too overworked with shows sometimes ...... but sure like to catch wat happens next...... well at least it doesnt get kinkier than autumn in my heart ........ that word again...... well cest la vie... off to cook dinner for dearest bro..... guess now i know why he made me that ice blended ha ha ha........kena cheated

Sigh .... was kinda dishearten till a while ago coz of hydraulics lab. Although when i choose to take up engineering i knew the many limitations i need to overcome i told myself i was up to it. I was very determine to make sure i am able to do what the guys can no matter what. Then today hydraulics lab was a cold hard hit in the face somehow. Needed to insert some tubes which requires to be securely locked in order to prevent leakage of the fluid used for the hydrualics systems. Surely this means some complicated locking mechanism on either end of the tubes which wouldn't be easy to put into place. And indeed it takes a lot of pushing and shoving to finally get that darn thing into place. Maybe i got soft over the (months ???semesters???) i dunno. I think some time back i would have been quite gung-ho bout it. But i dunno why i felt quite overwhelmed by it today. And after one attempt which at least ended up with the tube pushed into place without a doubt, i kinda got disheartened that it was so hard for me to push it into place. Hmmmmm at that moment it seems as though i let the fact that i am a girl get to me. Which I shouldn't. I believe its all in the head. So allowing myself that, i alr lost half the battle. And it did really get to me till i finally spoke to Rae about it and got my mind sorted only did i realize that its not the fact that i am a girl but that i let myself get disheartened about the fact that i am a girl ( wonders if this is making sense) that was the problem. Coz i realized that in the beginning some guys were having problem with the tube insertions too. So the fact that i finally got it in should be relieving coz it means i actually can and its not just me thats struggling. So i guess i need to toughen up more ......... and walk the walk....... dont look back ...... and dont think nonsense.......cest la vie

did the craziest most spontaneuos thing ever today. spontaniousness is good no ? brings the fun out of ya . life sure needs more of this moments .....

ok ok dieing to know ??? probably know by the title anyway. i entered some star search thingy that seventeen magazine organized. to tell u the truth. i was quite reluctant to join as most ppl there were dressed probably appropriately in readiness of this event.i on the other hand just finished my class and is dressed very very comfortably. Michelle was the one that suggested to enter . i didnt know she was that serious bout it . so she dragged daphi along to join her down stairs while i waited for lydia to finish with her atm business.when we finally reached down stairs, they were alr filling in the forms.. well no need to say lah. both of them were in the right kind of attire as usual. and even more daphi was in a hot pink halter . now thats chun. And there i was comfortable shirt and all.and when they were like," join la join la ".i was like erm......... dressed like this ????? *takes a look around* mostly ppl dress in cute little speghetti, halters or whatever thats "fashionable". anyway they was also a few that was wearing quite casual lah. so then lydia was also like saying "join dressed like this ah ?" coz she also dressed really casually. then suddenly saw her filling up the form. so after a little more "join la's" i decided to join just for fun. another one of lifes experience i guess.some what like y i wanted to join malaysian idol. ( but i wont deny it though. if i was dressed more appropriately i would have joined with very slight reluctance). So there i was filling up the form . and luck will have it that at that time oon ee calls to say he is bringing some one who really wants to meet up with me to see me.( which turns out to be sze ern my twin ). And more lucks . he arrives just as i was about to be made up. wonderful wonderful luck . he prob wont let me live it down. not any time soon anyway. Anyway had an inteview session. asked stuffs like what kinda star u want to be. i was like" ???????" a well rounded one of course. then i said i liked dancing and singing. and she was like who do u think u dance or sing like . another round of "???????". so i said" not anyone in particular. i dance like me of course." and when she said "so who is the star u look up to?" another round of "?????"( notice the pattern) tempted to say some korean singers name but lazy to xplain lah.so after that was photo session. sigh .damn nervous . was trying to smile but it was like . smile .... cant smile.... smile ..... cant smile ..... the photographer must be wondering whats wrong with me . oh well. then after that we pulled sze ern to do it as well. ah ha ha too bad rae not here. sure pull her one. for fun. nothing might be gained .other than experience . nothing to loose either. unless they take ur photo to photoshop something else lah. but lets not go there. another day spent . oh well. oh and we were super super fascinated by the lip gloss there used . must ask rae to check it out in aus. coz malaysia in coz 90 bucks for a tube. no way.its from aus so should be cheaper ???? anyway cest la vie.

edit : oh i forgot to mention. for our effort in taking part, we got a goody which consist of a thong a stilla make over voucher and a crave sample bottle......

edit2: and i forgot to mention too . when i was filling in my vital statistics. i didnt know what to fill in and was telling thie lady . and she went like." oh.... when u shop in TOP shop what size do you buy " and i was like ." ??????". i don't shop in TOP shop" like ??????? . not everyone can afford to shop there ... or even wants to ya know. sigh . ppl now a days and their obsession with branded non worth it stuffs. come to think of it . as i was saying , I wasnt even dressed appropriately .... take a look at my shirt . which is brandless. i bought it from Gaint a long long time ago btw.and what makes her think i would be bothered bout TOP shop. if i was i prob wont be caught dead in what i was wearing. not that what i was wearing was that bad.its just very put on and go .no time wasted.absolutely comfortable.