This seems to be getting into an annual fixture, although it isnt limited to once a year Well a very interesting "party" that started at 10 plus. The latest that i have ever attended. Basically gambled the night away... or what was left of it. I guess the "party" intentionally or not was turned into a chinese new year style party. Gambling being the main event lost five bucks though. But should be thankful that it was only five. Suppose to have a drink .... a little test of how well we can handle alcohol as rae puts it. Not the all out konk session .... for me that is . I was just looking for that slightly floating sensation. But then i actually decided not to have any cause i felt so bloody hungry and even after having after our four in the morning dinner/breakfast( for me that is) mamak session i felt that i shouldn't take any. Oh and the funniest thing u should have seen. One of the girls were slightly drunk and was carrying the chivas bottle around hollering for more drinks. She actually wanted to bring it to the mamak. But Soo took the bottle and left it in the car. They almost wanted to go to his car to retrive it if not for the two cops which came right in time for their ...breakfast ???

And after that we went back. And rae was all ready to start her drinking session. And........ while she was pouring her drink i took one sip to see if it was as bad as the scotch whiskey white label i tried the other day. Well..... it wasnt and in fact made my stomache feel better. And so i continued with more. Of course it was mostly 10% alcohol 90% coke But towards the last drink or two it went the other way around. I didnt intend to take any more but suet li was holding her chivas mix jack daniels mix erm cognac and no idea what else and a pinch of coke and looking slightly tipsy so i took it from her and drank half a cup. Stayed up till seven and i only decided to sleep cause i kept nodding off while reading a mag. The two were alr sound asleep. Rae asked for two hours of sleep so i set my alarm to 10 and went to sleep myself. But interestingly i woke up even before the alarm rang. I dont know y either. And guess what... no surprise here ... i couldnt wake her up . So i decided to let her sleep .... Well from there i survived the day with an hour plus of sleep went back to uni with rae to meet up with her coursemate, lunch and went back home found out it was 2 pm watched american idol 3 and slept at 3 to only wake up at 4 30 to go summit with mom. That was probably surviving the day with 3 hours of sleep. Oh well not as if it wasnt done b4. Didnt feel too sleepy but more like weak.

And I got a hard cover book for only 23 bucks fr popular books store. I figure it was only that cheap because it isnt a book that anyone would get. Only eccentric ppl like me would get it its on this really nottorious big boss from hong kong i think. A non-fiction. Ppl might be wondering why on earth i am reading bout a gangster..... but that is me ... i am just pretty eccentric. Oh well it is cheap for a hard cover book i figure. But i do think it will be a good read too. Interesting to find out what goes on in the underworld. How they opperate and stuffs..Not that i a m about to start any underground bussiness my self

I am so so so so screwed..... i got no idea where is my hp and i have a feeling it wont be in rae's car. Then where the hack is it i have no idea. Sigh i hope i am wrong. Waiting for her to confirm when she finally wakes up from her slumber

Anyway went for Darren's bday party yesterday. Havent been catching up with them for ages. Missed them alot in a way. Kinda sad right .... for the fact that he lives just down the road. Well technically speaking. The road is pretty damn long actually. But to me that was kinda like practically the closest i can get to a reunion any time soon. Interesting experience ... though i would say not completely a comfortable one. But as they say ppl have to get out of their comfort zone to improve. Well i guess i am the only one which hasnt really kept up with those bunch. Cause most of them seem to hit it off where they left off since the last they saw each other. But basically some are the kind that do all the nescessary pleasantries and leave you there ... just hunky dorie. Oh well wouldn't blame them in a way since the wavelength is pretty much cut off all together. And it is alr a known fact that they would be that way, not forgetting to mention that i wasnt even bothered to make too much of an effort. Sigh this is life. U can't really control it ... so learn to be selective. I guess i dont make too good of a bussiness preson. But i am happy to say that the rest of the nite went on not too bad. Hung out with less snooty ppl ha ha ha. was just talking to david and tracy and trisha. Though i wasn't too into it. I have my days Manage to even talk to my brother's old flame. Not sure if he still likes her. But well ...... youngsters. But the peak of the nite was probably when darren got drunk. Poor bday boy had alcohol practically forced down his throat. Shots after shots. Sure got damn drunk. But poor guy had a lot on his chest. And got pretty rowdy before he finally broke down. He sure was violent when he gets drunk. And i guess he was pretty much taken by his recent relationship. Heard fr his bro that his ex left him hanging for 8 months. They were supposedly broken up but some how she didnt make it clear and didnt allow him to date either. I feel really sad for him. And pretty pissed with that her. Although i havent been keeping up with them for such a long time. Anywa i had a drink myself. Saw baccardi and wanted to have a taste. Accidently pored too much though. But compared to the chivas suet pored the other day it was less lah. Added quite some coke but i guess i was too tired. I only had a few sips and i was feeling floaty liao. So i stopped b4 it got worst. Dad will kill me if he found out i drank outside and to add to it come home drunk. So pretty much floated around watching darren and his drunk antics. One thing i have to say though.... well kinda slightly my fault but ... this timmy kek sei ngo man. He was suppose to send me and another gal home. But after a while he had a few and was slightly tipsy.So he asked me to give him some time to sober up b4 he sent me back. The next thing i know, he walked home and i though he probably fell asleep. Turns out he came back with another bottle of drink and completely tipsier than b4. Lucky for me nelson came along sober and offered me a ride. I was really thankful. Was chatting with his gf. Turns out she knows tommy and seng boon. She was quite amused that i know them. Ha ha ha oh well so are many ppl that find out i am not who i look like Dunno if its a good or bad thing. Well cest la vie once again.

Ok .... so Rae's already on her way to Australia.....i wanna go also
wonders what she is doing now ...... Feelling really sleepy now though.... the fact has only slightly registered in my mind that i can't just conviniently pick up the phone to call her. And no more surprise ramley burgers visit...... There is one thing i wanna say though... poor her brother. Now he is the center of attention for his mom's concern on healthiness. Ha ha ha had probably his last burger king until a long time. Can't think anymore.... signing off from malaysia ....min .... peace

Hmmm this is about to sound either obsessive compulsive or totally les....... sigh hows vals day over in aus rae You know tonight i would have called you if you weren't how many thousand miles away????? . Just went out with daphy to yam cha and met up with one of her frens. Didn't have much to talk coz i was practically having a very very laggy brain . felt super super sleepy i took like half a minute to process what i want to say ... that is bad man..... i am still feeling very very laggy now..... feels as if my mouth is moving ahead of my brains ... so practically i wasnt even forming proper sentence most of the time. Something like the head didnt match the tail...... hmmm and i have to get use to talking to the comp and waiting for your reply budak. till i get ur phone number..... but that one also not too often lah .... idd isn't as cheap as local calls I have decided that i will probably go over to aus mid year to visit if i can lah. And if you welcome me .... till then ... I seriously still feel as if i am here but not here......... Whats wrong with me.... so frustrating..... i probably messed up my biological clock..... ah vals day is officially over in malaysia. But not like it matters to me. i am rambling.... so i better go sleep. nites everyone ....

was suppose to post bout this yesterday night... but it kept me up till 2 so i had to go sleep liao. Anyway i feel lucky that i had not went as intended.... it wasn't something i would find close to even being worthwhile. I don't understand whats with ppl now a days... The whole concept for the mtv asia awards is ...well nothing asian bout it except for the ppl there. The video clips before the nominees where announce .. where they usually do something that has something to do with the concept of the year is totally ridiculous. I know it suppose to have somethign to do with valentines. So they have this bunch of ppl dress up as cupids young one and oooollllld ones... and do some sort of cupid military training thing but it is done to suit the cupid requirements. Theree was this one where the "person in charge" was spanking this kid cupid with something.... and it leaves the words love hurts on the kids thigh.... i understand the concept but unfortunately i find it pretty distasteful some how..... even to the point of finding it annoying and ridiculous . Maybe it was partly the costumes fault as well . I think they could have done much much better. Then there was michelle branches clothes. The first one that she had on was as if she was about to pull janet jackson's stunt. She looked like she was wearing a scarve just enough to cover her boobs from poping out . Where is the class in that . If she would have worn something that was really low in cleavage but still enough to keep the class .. i won't be gripping. Sigh just don't understand..... The whole thing just comes across as close to being x rated somehow... there was even one interlude where vaness was tied to the cage and michelle was spanking him. What on earth is wrong with mtv....

Then there is the big dissapoinment in boa. Not that this has anything to do with mtv... but she reminds me more and more of britney and christina aguilera. Getting all grunge and rock and roll. The only thing different is that she is still keeping her modesty in her dressing. But the style is still very dark... Does she have to copy them . It just takes away the pleasure of listening to her music ......

oh well cest la vie

sigh.... another day closer to start of the semester..... not that i am dreading it ...... well at least i welcome a change to this stagnated life of mine..... but to think of all the workload.... hmmmm.... Anyway although my life is kinda stagnated... at least i can say something good came out of it.... i finally read a book ... i won't say i was very satisfied with the book... but at least i read.... started on a second .... and was planning to buy "the other side of mahathir" or something like that ... and it only cost 18 dollars.... but that has to wait until i can afford it...... anyway ... i am no where near to finishing LOTR the entire three books.... not even the first for that matter of fact... but since its with jenn its not entirely my fault.... i have to say that even if it was with me... i doubt i might have finish 3 books either ... not entirely my cup of tea.... Anyway did some preparations for the start of the sem ... wrapped my file.... it is now having a very cute pig motif on the cover and a picture of the cutie lee min woo at the back.... thinking if i should add another pic... but that will have to wait.....besides that just thougt i would like to share a pic :p though i am not in it......




edit : aiks too small for viewing... any how its in the gallery ... whether or not it makes a diff

edit 2: ok this the best i can do

Just got out of friendster..... was reading all those testemonials for me and also others.... sigh i always get nostalgic whenever i am reminded of all those times in the past. Probably can't classify all that as the best time or even the worst time of my life. But i have to say that every single memory holds precious to me in many ways....And i have to say .... as sung in frank sinatra's "My Way"....regrets i have a few....but then again too few to mention......... coz i did it my way i can always look back and smile a little and cringe ever just slightly ...... and i hope to continue doing that 20, 30 yrs down the road....