Yes this blog has been left to its dismal un-updated state for a looong time. And no i haven't dropped of the face of earth. The truth is that i have moved and forgotten about posting up an address change. Mainly because well ya i am forgetful and not to mention lazy and the fact that i think the amount of readers here can be counted by one hand perhaps. But thanks to the reminder of some one that i used to have a blog in tabulas here i am. And here is the new add. But the truth is that blog has been left to a state of neglect as well. One thing though, there is a feel of nostalgia to this blog so i might come back one day perhaps. For the moment blogging hasnt been my highest priority when what i am trying to do is barely surviving through the days spending most of the time being stressed and trying not to be stressed. Those have been taking up a great part of my conciousness for me to even want to bother about the world outside this bubble. Yes i know i live a life of sad existence. But till the day i learn to lighten up that is all i can offer.

Counting now, i realize that it was almost three years back that i was working in coffee bean. That was right before i started my 1st year. Seems like such a long time ago putting it that way. But going by memory it just doesnt feel that long.

Ever since i worked there, I think i could count with my fingers how many times i went back. At first it was partly because of how sick i was of that place after being there almost every other day for 3 months. Then it was mostly because i couldn't really afford it. I did not visit any other coffee bean outlets more than my finger can count either. But i do like their coffee alot

So last week i went back there to get myself an ice blended which i had a voucher for from the cleo birthday bash goodie bag. You can't imagine how happy i was to see that peice of paper. I like normal coffee but good coffee is just a little more different. But they are expensive so i stick to my kopi bings and nescafe 3 in 1. So i think you can imagine the heaven it was working there in this point of view. But..... there is always a but, more on that later. So i since i went shopping alone, i decided to get my ice blended around the time i was to leave. Hmm well walking in there was like, " hey i used to be the one behind the counter". And " hey, i wonder how the kitchen looks like now". Then i realized i kinda missed working there abit. Not that the days there weren't shitty. But life is about taking all the shits and turning it into experiences i guess. I know everytime someone mentions working there again, i shiver at the thought. And the night shifts is really hell. You have to clean up the whole place, put the tables and chair in the shop (a lot of arm exercise there), wash everything up including the drain, bring in all the cakes and the list goes on. And they dont pay you for the hour that u take to do that because they think we are superhumans. But the esperience really depends on who is ur manager. I had mostly 3/4 of the time or more worked with shitty to slightly shitty managers of the day. But the main manager is the absolute heaven to work with. Unfortunately i don't see her often enough.

But all in all, i guess working is a good experience. Teaches us to treat ppl better, I think everyone should really get this kinda a job. Especially spoilt brats that think the world revolves around them.

Well the on going project which i have assisted in somewhat is at the moment considered completed in my part. So what i have been doing this two days has been just hanging around the office surfing for topic of interest. Playing some sudoku and just plain zoning out. Just a small activity in the morning of taking the final temperature profile which i left out before this. No more things to do for the time being.

Had some sort of  "meeting" with my supervisor where he has shown me what had been done with the data collected for the sawing process. It is really great that he is so willing to share with me what has been done with the data collected so that i don't feel as if  am really here as cheap labour to just collect data. And he actually said that how important the data i collected really is. Well it really only takes that much to make some one more serious with what they do for u. I am not sure about what goes on with the rest of the monash bunch and their supervisor so i guess it is too soon to say that i am the only one getting this treatment. But something which i have to say i was relieve as well as glad to hear is that he think my performance so far has been... not sure the word he used was great of just good. But ya that was nice to hear. I know i need to have more confidence in myself, but seriously i am still feeling blindly around as to what type of image i am projecting to the outside looking in. I may feel as if i am giving a confident and capable person/worker look but who knows what they see right. I still doubt my personal judgement on things as i always feel as if i overestimate things. But so far so good one month almost gone 3 months to go. Boy does that sound like a freaking long time.

omg the comp that i have is so freaking slow. Anyways somehow i am being made to eat my words about notbeing able to blog in the office since i am doing this for the 2nd time in a row today.  The reason for this is because after half day worth of training to do cross sectioning i am left with another half a day that is free. My supervisor thinks i deserve a rest. So here i am supposedly taking this time to write my report but am actually multi tasking e.g blogging and *ahem* reading some acedemic related stuffs.

I guess i am not complaining since i get to use the comp anyway. So far i have been reading on the GPS stuffs(which i now learnt is different from GPRS one being Global Positioning system and the latter being General Packet Radio service) since i am interested to see if it can be used for one of my ideas. Will see how much i can gather from the internet and if i get any more bright ideas on how i can use it. Feel like perhaps expanding the tracking robot to higher technology. But that is just my thoughts. Nothing t do with the project group that I was with. Though a simple infra red signal was enough fr us to get a HD. But i am not complaining really. And the obstacle avoidance system can use some work as well. It was actually still buggy when we demoed. But that could be due to our infrared reciever which was playing havoc with our microcontroller due to the sucky mounting which is actually my fault anyway. Oops! thought the way we secured it was good enough to avoid short circuits.

As random as it is, since i mam typing this not in a continous time mode, i decided to give a simple japanese lesson today. Not sure who is this going to benefit but at least it will help me to remember some of the stuffs i have been trying to self learn.

Lesson 1

good morning - ohayo gozaimasu

how are you? / are u healthy ? -  O genki desuka

how do you do ? - hajimemashite

my name is .... - watshi no namae wa .... desu

nice to meet you - dozo yuroshiku/ yuroshiku onegaishimasu

thank you - arigato gozaimusa

you're welcome - do itashi mashite

excuse me - sumimasen

i'm sorry - gomenasai

i speak alittle japanese - watashiwa nihongo sukoshi hanashimasu

thats all for now. And back to my reports.

I'm in the office typing this out. Ironically when i complained about not being able to blog when i am in the office it is proven wrong.. the only problem is the comp is freaing slow and more importantly i need to watch my back to make sure no big shots are around since we are only suppose to use the comp for work purpose.

So what should i blog about 2day. Unfortunately i don't have anything light in mind. And i don't feel like blogging about some dark heavy stuffs which i have plenty to since it is alr a dark gloomy morning. And my shoes and socks are all wet from the walking to office. Sigh.....

Anyway i think i didn't maanage to blog about this yesterday, but i manage to score 3 books for around rm 17 plus. Is that a bargain or what. But i know Oon-Ee will digress since 17 not spent is 17 saved as he puts it. But since i am not one to be able to afford books on normal days but always felt like getting some this is really nice. The only problem? It isn't exactly what i long to buy on normal days either. These 3 books are fictions. But one is on a wine making family so i am banking on learning something there another one is i think about a guy who is trying to get ppl to see what a fake life they were living or something, but alas he fell into the trap as well. And the last is a three romance novel in a book kinda thing which i picked up last minute since i saw it at the counter and it cost rm 5. Which i was looking for one cheap one but couldn't find till then. There was a book which i had wanted to get for sometime although i doubt these 2 books were fr the same author. The first one i saw at Times book store and was entitled The dragon lady. The one  saw yesterday was the last emperess. The 1st one cost rm 70 which is really alot. And the 2nd one I wasn't sure. That was because it was stated the price as nett rm 43 but i thought it was after discount since there was another book, both hardback mind u, that went for 19.90 with a 70% discount. So i expected it to be after discount. Turns out the 19.90 book only cost rm 6 ish and that means the last emperess book should have cost rm 21 plus. Not dirt cheap but for such a book i would say worth it since it is a non-fiction.

oh well. I guess i will have to get that at normal price once i can afford it and have the time to read it.

Hmmm for some one who dont know what to say when  started i sure always manage to yak my way through. Alright thats all for now pictures for la bodega will be up soon